its only a number

i made the stupid mistake of getting on the scale the other day to see if i have gained a few lbs since the last time i weighed myself. i have noticed that my body has changed over the last two months and was curious to see what the scale said. it confirmed my thoughts. i know i need to realize that its only a number and that the last time i weighed myself i was training for a marathon. but its still hard to see especially when you live on the beach and are surrounded by skinny beautiful girls everywhere.

i feel like body image is an issue i think about daily. i try really hard to have a positive attitude towards my body and how i look. i even want to build a career on helping  others have a positive body image by maintaining a healthy lifestyle. i feel that i sometimes perceive myself as being bigger then i am because of how i used to look during my college years. its a weight and a lifestyle i do not ever want to go back to. and sometimes i get scared because i think it can be a slippery slope. instead of getting caught up in how i think others perceive how i look i want to concentrate on being more conscious of what and how much i put into my body. for example: instead of eating 4 chocolate chip cookies a day ill cut it back to one per week...we will see how that goes!

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. 

-buddha

the pits.

kalhua is a proud mother of four.  she went into labor last night around 7. unfortunately, i had to go into work at 8 and missed the birthing process. by the time i got over to see them both mama and aaron were exhausted. aaron has his hands full with these little guys for 6 weeks. he is dreading it...i couldn't be more excited! :)

brown. black. white.

i am not a cat person whatsoever. ruby is our 5th roommate. i think she is pretty cute...when she is sleeping.

red

had a bad night last night. nicole brought over a half dozen cupcakes. good friends and good cupcakes make everything better :)

belated orange and yellow.

opps. forgot to post/take a photo yesterday. oh well it just gives me an excuse to post a picture of nicaragua.

green.

i started my teachers assistantship today. it's weird being back on campus, but i love how beautiful and green the uncw campus is.

blue & purple

it's in the 50's today and rainy. there is no way i am going outside so i had to find monday's colors, blue and purple inside.  

this is our refrigerator. i love all of the stickers on it. when we moved into our apartment there were already some stuck on it. we have added a few here and there.

the color blue is for my roommate jessica who got these dockside stickers on saturday night and stuck them on everything and everyone she saw that night (which she found pretty hilarious.) on sunday morning i went to get some milk out of the fridge and saw she had put one on our fridge. i had no idea she had grabbed so many. it made me smile that morning and still makes me smile.

color week.

this week is color week. i have no idea if i will stick to it but i did say that i was coming back to my blog and i love any excuse to use my camera.

coming back.

this past week i haven't been feeling well. i have been waking up and feeling pretty decent but by mid afternoon i just have been crashing. i have had to give up a couple of my shifts at work this week. it is friday and between now and this past sunday i have made $7. 

yesterday, i had my last day off of the week and it was the first time i have spent the afternoon out of bed. unfortunately, it was rainy so i couldn't spend the day on the beach. but the rain did get us beach bums off the island. nicole and i went downtown to talk to a tattoo artist about getting her tattoo (christy we need to get ours.) then we spent the rest of the afternoon drinking a bottle of wine at boca bay with taylor just catching up. 

catching up with the girls. catching up with my blog. i'm slowly coming back.

wordless wednesday

happy cinco de mayo

i am dreading going into work tonight  for cinco de mayo. craziness is sure to ensue in tower 7 bc it always does. here is a prime example:

below is a picture of me coming through one of tower 7's front windows. this window was shattered by a drunk parking meter guy on duty only an hour or so before this picture was taken. 

taylor and i had worked all day on wednesday and decided it was a good day to go on a bike ride and have a few beers at lighthouse. after we went to lighthouse we decided to go visit the new/old bartender at tower and have a few margaritas. when we rode our bikes up to tower we saw the owner of tower and the building owner standing outside with a huge piece of plywood. apparently, one of the wrightsville beach meter ticket guys was drunk on duty and went around the curve too fast and ran smack dab into tower. the police came gave him a dui test and he failed and was arrested. luckily, no one was eating at the window bar or walking in front of the building.

hopefully, tonight will include more crazy stories along with me enjoying more margaritas/tequila. happy cinco de mayo.