i made the stupid mistake of getting on the scale the other day to see if i have gained a few lbs since the last time i weighed myself. i have noticed that my body has changed over the last two months and was curious to see what the scale said. it confirmed my thoughts. i know i need to realize that its only a number and that the last time i weighed myself i was training for a marathon. but its still hard to see especially when you live on the beach and are surrounded by skinny beautiful girls everywhere.
i feel like body image is an issue i think about daily. i try really hard to have a positive attitude towards my body and how i look. i even want to build a career on helping others have a positive body image by maintaining a healthy lifestyle. i feel that i sometimes perceive myself as being bigger then i am because of how i used to look during my college years. its a weight and a lifestyle i do not ever want to go back to. and sometimes i get scared because i think it can be a slippery slope. instead of getting caught up in how i think others perceive how i look i want to concentrate on being more conscious of what and how much i put into my body. for example: instead of eating 4 chocolate chip cookies a day ill cut it back to one per week...we will see how that goes!
You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
-buddha